Frustrated at Forty

Last night I came home to an empty house – wife is out of town and kids are staying elsewhere.
I had a couple of drinks with good friend and her co-worker – someone that I have known better in the past.
Good Friend is in a new relationship and is going to surprise her boyfriend tomorrow night by showing up in a trenchcoat, garters, stockings, panties, bra, and high heels. I assured her that he would enjoy it. The talk for the evening always returned to her booty-call and what they were to be doing.
Just thinking about it during the drive home made me horny. Returning to an empty house did not help.
I pulled out an old, doctor’s bag that we have maintained since before our getting married. As a young couple, we were always more willing to try/do more for the other person. We started playing with restraints – wrist and ankle with chains to connect them all. We needed something to store them in and thought that we should find a bag. We went to a Goodwill and found an old, doctor’s-type bag. It was old, but worked fine. Over time it became the storage place for porn, position books, condoms, lubes, plastic sheets and whatever else we found through the years.
It also became the repository for old VHS tapes that we have made – especially in the late 80’s/early 90’s. I popped in some of the video tapes. It’s striking how young we looked. I was a good fifty or sixty pounds lighter, had long hair and was much less hairy. She was thinner and her body shape was much different than today. Mine too – I was slender and more athletic looking. Oh, what our bodies do as we age – I wish I paid more attention to that while younger.
The videos include rendezvous in the mountains and several bedroom scenes. Oh, the stamina of youth! There’s one video that because of the time stamp – we fucked for over an 90 minutes. Then after playing for about fifteen minutes – continued for another two hours minutes! It’s a sad tribute to aging as well.
Seeing us screwing on tape made me very hard. While I continued with the home movies, I looked through the bag. There were anal plugs that we had both planned on using. A penis-shaped vibrator that never ‘vibrated’. One year she bought me a latex pussy. We never figured that one out and the one time we brought it out it was not anything pleasurable. There were the old sexual position books, several VHS porn movies that we used to like and a few DVD’s that we had purchased in the last five or six years.
I looked through the position books – we pretty much had tried all of those. They were very campy – one was made from 70’s era porn pictures, the other had 80’s hair do’s.
The latex pussy was still wrapped in it’s original tissue paper.  I watched more of our homegrown porn.  The artificial pussy has lips and all.  I brought out some lube and lubed my penis up real well.  In hindsight, it’s pretty easy and just as long as you are well lubed – works pretty well.  There I was giving myself a handjob with a fake pussy on my hand.  It wasn’t overly satisfying – but in a pinch it was something different and served it’s purpose.  I cleaned myself (and the pussy) up and packed everything back.  Everything except for the videos.
I watched until the wee hours and was amazed and them all.  We spoke.  We touched.  We played with eachother.  We played with ourselves.  The whole restraint thing – the very first time – is on tape.  It excited me more to see us as we used to be.  That makes me think that it could return to that.
If you just look at our faces and the way we touch and even the way that we made love – that we loved eachother a lot.  I’m not saying that we don’t now – it’s just that it’s all different.  Sex is now something that we have to plan a bit more and take too many other things into consideration – kids, time constraints, sleep.  You can tell that we just fucked because we enjoyed it!  Seeing how our bodies have changed is making me want to start doing sit ups more.  Damn I looked sexy!  We also did more active things together then.  I want us to return to that as well.
There’s hope on those tapes!

I need to find a way to transfer those from VHS to digital.  Who knows how much longer they will last