Frustrated at Forty

In looking at my current situation, I have to look back at my life. Mostly this is to see if I can see a pattern or to see if I can see possible reasons for my current situation.

I had the pleasure of opening up a nightclub where I was king of the world for a couple of years.  A few months into it, a band required a limo to take them everywhere and I met the owner of the company.  She was very attractive, auburn hair, and about 19 years older than I was.  She asked me for my number and we started dating pretty quickly.  She had a large house that she shared with her seventeen year old daughter.  The sex was pretty amazing and she would help me make her orgasm – that was very important for her.  I would go to fancy parties with her, out to dinners, and other places where it ended up I was just being ‘shown’.  I guess I was her boy-toy.  It felt good and I didn’t mind.  That relationship ended on a weird note where she said that a business partner of her ex-husband was involved in the mob and if anyone ever asked for her, I was NOT to say that I knew her.  She really did just disappear.

SP8 Recap:  Being a tool was actually fun.  I would have men come to me and ask me who I was and ladies who would also ask where I came from.  Having almost more in common with her daughter was a bit strange.  Having her daughter walk in on us was stranger.  It was weird how it ended – I have often wondered where she went.